I tell ya what- it’s been a pretty rocky past couple of weeks. Let’s hit on a couple of the highlights, shall we?
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Monday evening, as I was driving rapidly to the gas station (just being seconds away) my car suddenly stopped working! What could this be? ah yes…. Silly me ran out of gas.
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Since I have some of the greatest friends ever, Julia and Sterling came to save the day and take me to the gas station to purchase a gas can and a little gas. As we get back to the car, I notice my keys aren’t with me. Where could they be?? Of course. In the ignition! Locked in my car! CHA CHING!
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Today I go to work…. semi cranky…. but that’s beside the point. What could go wrong at work? Oh nothing… except for maybe potentially burning the place down. haha… leave it to me to literally catch things on fire. haha… I know right?
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Then– here’s the icing on the cake– I hit the back of some guys brand new Lexus. oops! Luckily it didn’t really leave a mark and the guy didn’t really care…. but holy crap people!
To be honest, these are the type of things I get over. It is the bigger things… the issues that deal with people that get to me.
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Confrontation with my boss
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Frustrations with my job
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Seeing the brothers and sisters in Christ act in such a manner that is not glorifying to the King
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Missing my family…. terribly
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Missing quality time spent with Jesus
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Not expressing myself through art because I’m not making time for it
These are the things that break me down. And to be real honest and real- sometimes you just feel like throwing in the towel. Some days I just want to quit my job, sit in my room all day with the lights off and wallow in my sorrows.
But then I’m reminded that I am not here on this earth to think about how bad I may have it. I’m here to love God and love people. But sometimes people are just so gosh darn unlovable. But that’s the beauty of the story. God loves me even though I’m unlovable. But the coolest part of that story is that He doesn’t find me unlovable. He finds me beautiful, gentle, kind, precious, funny, delicate, joyous…. and just flat out fantastic.
I’m so glad He’s given me hope. And peace. And people around me who throw me fiestas because I’ve had a crappy week. He knows me pretty well. What more could a girl ask for?
