Surrender

Do you ever feel like you often don’t get the things you really want in life? Do you feel like God’s denying you these things or maybe like He’s not even listening?

I must say, there have been times when I have felt like God wasn’t there. Not long after my father passed away I felt so alone. I felt like no one in the world understood what I was in the middle of. And just when you’d think you’d need God the most, I couldn’t find Him anywhere. His voice was so faint. All I wanted was for Him to hold me and tell me everything was going to be okay(which I can now look back and see that’s exactly what He was doing…) but I couldn’t hear Him. My prayer was that I was broken and I wanted Him to fix me. That’s all, God. Just fix me. He was nowhere(so I thought).

I’m sure we’ve all been through similar times. All we want is to hear God and for Him to answer our prayers… and He doesn’t.

My best friend, Kim, laughs at me because often many issues in life are “trust issues”. If you know me well enough that phrase will often pop up in conversation, “well, that’s a trust issue.” But honestly, if I truly trusted God with these things in my life… the important things. Ya know, the issues that are the “big” ones. i.e. career change, going back to school, marriage(or single-hood), finances… and so on, I wonder what life would be like.

True surrender really does equal true freedom.

What issues do you not trust God with?

Jeremiah 29-11-14 :: I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out. Plans to take care of you, not abandon you. Plans to give you the future you hope for. When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I’ll listen. When you come looking for me, you’ll find me. Yes, when you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I’ll make sure you won’t be disappointed.

Do you see your life as a bigger picture? As a part of a greater song or story? Or do you see it as your own? Are you holding on to the “big issues”? what is holding you back from trusting a holy God….the Creator of everything good… with your life? Sometimes we have this sense of ‘God, if you’d just give me this, then I’d be ok. Then my life would be okay.’ Why are we trying to be in control?

There have been many times in life when I have felt unsure about important issues and I have trusted God… and things turned out better than I could ever have imagined. Why don’t I have that faith always?

I was asked by a friend(Rob Bell) “do you believe God is good? I mean, do you deep in your bones? What do you really believe God is like? Because until we each deal with this question, then nothing’s ever going to make any sense, is it?”

So, do you? Do you believe God is truly good? Then let go and trust Him.

 

Surrendering,

Bailey